My name is Sal and this is my story. 

I grew up in the porn capitol of the world: the San Fernando Valley. My mother gave birth to me when she was 12 and I never knew my dad. My mom was a single mother.

My mother later died in a drunken driving accident and now I am left with no family. 

The Valley has more street gangs than any part of Los Angeles and that’s what I grew up in. I was raped three different times by two male gang members when I was six years old. They threatened me not to say anything or they would kill me. In the lifestyle that I grew up there was a lot of sex, drugs and parties.  

I was never the same after the rapes and at eight years old I began to look for gay porn on the internet. The only thing I knew about sex was men raping me. My life totally changed after me getting rape. I was afraid of people and had a lot of anger inside of me.  

By age 16, I needed money so a family member began shopping me around to gay porn filmmakers to get me into gay porn. I was told to take diet pills and Crystal meth to lose weight so I could look more feminine for gay and transsexual jobs. My mom’s family (her brother and sister) stopped talking to me because I was homosexual and because I was getting myself into the adult industry. 

I began performing in gay porn at age 16. It took me five years to build my name. I did gay and transsexual porn for nine years as well as stripping and escorting with both male and female clients. If a client paid me an extra $300 I would let the client not use condoms on me. I also stripped at top strip clubs and because guys thought that I was a girl, they would have sex with me. 

Being in gay porn was very risky. A lot of producers and directors don’t like using condoms and not everyone in gay porn is regularly tested for STDs. I have known porn actors who also alter their test. About 80% of gay performers are HIV-positive. I was under a very well-known straight adult star who used to own an adult talent agency, her and her husband used to make me do crystal meth so I would be skinnier and they used to tell me that if I didn't have sex with them that they wouldn't get me any jobs. They used me in their scam for about 2 years. They also had 50 other girls under their agency and they were doing the same thing to them as well. At the Northridge mansion we would have orgies and everybody would be doing drugs. And if we didn’t attend their parties they would go looking for us and bring us even if we didn't want to go. 

I was a slave. I understand now that I was sex trafficked as a minor.

It is also common for straight male performers to do bisexual porn or cross over and do gay porn since it pays more money. When I was in gay porn I worked with over 14 straight performers. Most try to keep it a secret.

I got hooked on drugs at age 18 so I had barely been in the biz two years before I started doing drugs. It’s nearly impossible not to! There are crazy parties and a lot of straight and gay porn stars smoke crack or do crystal meth before a scene. I know because I was one of them! I used to spend hundreds of dollars on meth. Or pornographers gave me drugs.

Both the gay and straight porn industry is rife with drugs and alcohol.  

I have seen a lot in the nine years I’ve been in this business. I did a lot of straight photo shoots with very famous female porn stars and they are hooked on drugs, too. I have done photo shoots with some of the world’s most popular female porn stars and they, too, have to do drugs to get through a scene. Behind the scenes they are not happy. All of us adult stars hide behind our persona when we are on camera but when the camera is done filming, we go home and we are miserable.

I’m just really sick of the drama and drugs in porn. I will no longer spread my legs for the porn industry. I want out and I want to live a normal life. I want to find out who I really am without porn. I don’t want to be that porn character anymore. And I really feel if I don’t get out soon, that I will die. 

I know God has something better for me.

I know God has chosen me to be a better person. 

I hope my story helps you if you are considering doing porn. Porn has done nothing for me except destroy my life and I have nothing to show for my years in porn except a lot of pain.

I thank God for the Pink Cross Foundation and to Shelley for all of their love, support and prayers. I also want to thank Victory Outreach SFV for all of their love, support, prayers and for not giving up on me. Thank you Shelley and I love your friendship. I am proud to say that I am an Ex porn star thanks to the Pink Cross Foundation and especially to God and His Son Jesus Christ.   

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Update: Sal is now attending ministry school at Victory Outreach. He needs a job. He has never worked a normal job since he was sold into gay porn as a minor. So, please pray God would open a door up for him to have a good job. He also needs help with rent and living expenses while he heals from porn and attends ministry school. He really needs a lap top for school. If you can help Sal, please donate at www.thepinkcross.org or mail your donation to:

Pink Cross Foundation 6077 Coffee Rd. #4 PMB 33 Bakersfield, CA. 93314

Thank you for caring about this precious man!