Former Gay Male Porn Star "Skyy" Forgiven
I moved to Los Angeles for my last semester of college because I had a credit only internship. The only money I had was from grants, scholarships, and student loans. My mother could not help me financially. After tuition and housing, I barely had money to feed myself and I wanted to stay in Los Angeles and look for a job.
I was worried about paying to continue to live out here and being able to feed myself. I started looking for a job immediately, but nothing was coming up. I applied to part time jobs at the mall and jobs that I qualified for from the degree I was about to receive. Nothing happened.
Then I was on Grindr, the gay networking app on phones, and a guy mentioned that he was a "model scout" for porn. He talked me into coming over and taking pictures because he said I only had to do videos where I masturbated in front of the camera and there would be no one else involved. It seemed like the easy cash that I needed.
Eventually those videos moved into videos with other men. The model scout gave me the feeling that it was glamorous and people would like me for the videos. He made me kind of think that it was a form of success. I still wasn't able to find a normal job, so this little thing I wanted to do only one time to get some quick cash turned into much more than that. The man who was my "model scout" began to require me to have sex with him in order to continue to get me more work. I felt like a sex slave!! I also felt I wasn’t going to be able to support myself because I could not find a job to support myself. I felt trapped with no way out.
On my first shoot, we were drinking what was supposed to be fake alcohol, but it was real alcohol. It helped calm my nerves. During shoots, I can't remember if there was a major moment when I didn't want to do something and they persuaded me to do it. Honestly, I didn't want to do any of it. I just kind of let my mind blank out during those times because I did NOT like what I was doing at all.
Soon I caught Chlamydia and it terrified me. It was the wakeup call I needed! I prayed and prayed to God to please save me. I begged for forgiveness, and by Christ I am forgiven! God answered me quickly and I found a job that month. Thank God!
Unfortunately my videos are out there, and I have friends approach me constantly via facebook, etc. saying that they saw one of the videos. It's shameful, and all I can do is praise God that I was rescued from that life before it became worse.