After 2 month of withdrawal and sobriety - fell on my face
Hey all,
Looking for some grace and forgiveness. I had been clean for 2 straight months. Felt awesome, mind was becoming very clear, more grounded.
Then, I started falling away from my healthy routine, (hadn't worked out regularly, wasn't praying in the spirit as much).
Yesterday was triggered, and looking at some explicit stuff, but managed to pull away, but didn't delete. This morning I steadily fell back into the pit.
Ladies, I ask your forgiveness for objectifying you for my own personal release. I know porn is complete BS but I allowed temptation to get the better of me. Please forgive me for sinning against you with my eyes and my body.
PLease pray that the Lord in his mercy will break the strongholds in my soul and mind. I seek greater discipline to not let up for a second in pursuing a healthy lifestyle.
Pray against the spirit of sloth.
Thanks!
Comments
Attributed to GEN George S. Patton, Jr.:
"Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom."
You hit bottom. Start bouncing. Grab a pogo stick or a trampoline or even a space rocket if you must, and start bouncing.
You returned to your addiction. So what? You realized that it is an addiction, and you felt bad enough about it to promise yourself and others that you would not return to it. YOU HAVE A CONSCIENCE. That conscience is given to you by the grace of Almighty God. That conscience will help you bounce back from falling prey to your addiction.
Your friend,
Richard C. August
Same thing happened to me a while back after two months, wich was by far the longest period of abstinence for me. Let's lift each other up!