I saw this on the internet it gives a good picture of what addiction can seem like/feel like only Jesus can fill you up and give you all you need for life all of lifes desires Jesus is the ultimate one who will give you the living waters of life
heres the poem you maybe you can relate to it....

I am an empty, hollow shell of a man. A deep void is torn into my soul and constantly hungers; never to be sated. I fill that unending abyss with pornography. I view images of distorted paradises and listen to people who make empty promises.

I have done numerous things that I am ashamed of; that is one of the few emotions I know anymore:
shame, guilt, hate, rage. Genuine love is foreign to me. I do not know what it is like to be touched, held,
kissed... cherished.

I have lied and stolen to escape my misery. I have spent thousands of dollars to simply mistreat a wound which never heals. I am filled with violent anger. My mind is flooded with sadistic thoughts that I have to drown in.

I am tired and beaten down. I feel that there is no hope of ever escaping the cage I have built around myself. Every day which passes is one of mere existence, as I am more dead than alive.

I want to be like the people I hate. I want the pleasure,the beauty,the glory.Yet all I have is pain, repulsion and solitude. Some people swear that my problem doesn't even exist. But why does the ache feel so real?

I am lost and I am falling fast. I am a sex addict.

-L.C.