Porn Star Confessions

orn Star Confessions

Kacey Jordan

“We’re going to play a game. Ready? First we’re going to start with some xanax and then we’re going to start with ibuprofen and maybe a few pain killers. Anyways, let’s watch me die.”

Watch a heartbreaking video of Kacey Jordan attempting suicide on YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMWG-S3fUWc
Jenna Jameson

“’My life’, I said. ‘It’s not where I want it to be…I’m just…stuck. I’m…addicted.’ For the first time I had vocalized it. I was addicted…. I hadn’t done any work in a month. I looked down at my hand, and my fingertips were black from all the time spent holding hot cigarette lighters under meth pipes.”

View videos of Jenna high on drugs and alcohol on YouTube at:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RF-kXwtzGlM

Here is how she started out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zk2IWTPGgOU#t=4523

Please pray for Jenna and ALL of these women who are being destroyed by porn.
Jesse Jane

On promoting her new Diosa Tequila:

“Everyone starts drinking at six am. And they go all day and night. So everybody was pretty drunk. We had my party at CityWalk and there were so many thousands of people that you could barely move. And when we walked outside to leave before 1am, there were lines of people around the building and two blocks down.

To come and see you! 
It was crazy. It was a blast. I was sick, like I am now. So I couldn’t drink that night, which was probably the best thing, because I had to take a flight out at 4am.”

View two videos on YouTube of a very drunk Jesse Jane and see what porn REALLY looks like. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFa5ExNZIkw and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksDI7Htxbl0
Mary Carey

“When I’m sober, I get more anxious. When you are sober, you are forced to deal with reality. I get anxious about all the things I have to get done. When I was with Tawny all the time and we were drunk every day, I didn’t do much. I’d wake up hung over and get ready to drink more. It’s a great way to escape reality. When I’m drunk, I blow more money. When I’m sober, I don’t want to spend my money.”

View a video about Mary Carey being kicked off of a plane for being drunk at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjT1tugdrps
Bibi Jones

On her retirment from porn in tears from a video on YouTube:

“You guys know me as the major super slut. I’m f**king guys all the time and I do. But I kind of have some news. Big news. I’ve been extra unhappy the last couple of months. I’m not happy with me. I need to look at the big picture now. And everyone knows that porn is a life starver and family is number one and it hurts my family a lot so I am doing it for them and I’m doing it for me. I guess I’m saying that I am getting out of the business. I was promised a lot of things and I was so excited and so happy but nothing has happened and I can’t do it anymore.”
Erin Moore

“Over the course of my porn career I have been belittled and treated like a piece of trash more than I could have ever imagined in a lifetime I would. I wasn’t a woman in any of these directors eyes, I was nothing to them. The male talent at times were nice, but sometimes, they were horrible. I’ve had men choke me, slap me, thrust me so hard until I couldn’t walk and this would happen even after I would tell them to stop. They have no respect for women.”
Cameron Bay

“Having your agent calling you and asking you if it’s that a news person wants to confirm your status is not the easiest way to find out you’re HIV positive.”

Watch an emotional and tearful interview of Cameron Bay on her HIV status at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwDBDoF1FtU
Taylor Rain

On doing cocaine in her rectum:

“You have to blow it really hard. You blow and the person jumps like three feet. It f**king goes into your bloodstream.”

In February 2007, she spent twenty days in jail for possession of marijuana and for driving under the influence.
Melissa Lauren

“I hate the stupid people who are irresponsible and f— with strangers without condoms, without tests. I hate all the STDs. I hate that most of the girls are f—— drug addicts.”
Sierra Sinn

“My first scene was one of the worst experiences of my life. It was very scary. It was a very rough scene. My agent didn’t let me know ahead of time… I did it and I was crying and they didn’t stop. It was really violent. He was hitting me.”
Rebecca ardoux

“I’m a typical porn star,” Rebecca Bardoux says with a smile, at the June 1997 Erotica LA Convention. “I come from a dysfunctional family. We don’t relate… When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a call girl.
Eva Angelina

“My pussy was so swollen, it was unbelievable. And the next day, I was obligated to work for Cherry Boxxx. And that f—ed me up even more. Working three scenes after having been so injured f—– me up. For a good six months, I wasn’t normal. My pussy wasn’t normal until a couple of months ago. It just sucks.”
Tanner Mayes

“I was actually out, shooting a scene, and after we’re all sitting there partying, and in the course of a porn career you run into those things. From there it’s just a matter of what you wanna do, and I’m always up for anything. “Hey, you wanna hit this?” and I said sure. I stayed up that whole night partying. GHB and speed. This was a director’s place, and we’re all hanging out and making money and having fun…but then it eventually spins out of control.”

View a video of Tanner Mayes having a meltdown at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlGUrvfk7mI
Amber Lynn

“What happened for me was I had a lifestyle that surrounded and supported the getting and using and having more and more drugs. I had a lot of people around me that supported and encouraged that behavior because it allowed them to continue to make money off of me.”
Kami Andrews

“I love the money, the glamor. I like being recognized. I like the attention. What I don’t like is not being able to shit right. You are constantly doing enemas and you’re fasting and you’re taking all these different pills, ex lax, and it screws up your internal system.”
Demi Delia

On the porn industry:

“It is a ticking time bomb. It’s going to get worse. It’s not going to get any better.”
Jenna Presley

“It was torture for seven years. I was miserable, I was lonely. I eventually turned to drugs and alcohol, and attempted suicide. I knew I wanted out, but I didn’t know how to get out.”
Michelle Avanti

“Some of my experiences on the porn set include me being totally wasted and porn producers allowed me to be and even provided alcohol and drugs for me. I experienced rough sex scenes and have been hit by male talent and told them to stop but they wouldn’t stop until I started to cry and ruined the scene. During one specific scene called “Bukkake” I was really high and the producers knew it and they told me to use a Douche to pretend I was urinating on another performer but I had an accident and instead I defecated on the performer. I was so humiliated and wanted to die. They told me it was okay and not to worry that they weren’t going to make a big deal about it and the next thing I know they blasted the scene all over the web. I felt totally degraded.”
Traci Lords

“Well, I grew up in a small town in Ohio , and when I was 10 years old, I was raped by a high school boy that was about 16. And from there, my mother had an older boyfriend that molested me, so my entire childhood was really shaped by these really traumatic sexual experiences, which ultimately led me to the streets of Hollywood and to porn.”
Andi Anderson

“After a year or so of that so-called “glamorous” life, I sadly discovered that drugs and drinking were a part of the lifestyle. I began to drink and party out of control! Cocaine, alcohol and ecstasy were my favorites. Before long, I turned into a person I did not want to be. After doing so many hardcore scenes I couldn’t do it anymore. I just remember being in horrible situations and experiencing extreme depression and being alone and sad.” – Andi Anderson
Regan Starr

“I got the shit kicked out of me… most of the girls start crying because they’re hurting so bad… I couldn’t breathe. I was being hit and choked. I was really upset and they didn’t stop. They kept filming. [I asked them to turn the camera off] and they kept going.”
Elizabeth Rollings

“I sold my soul to the devil without even knowing it. Ironically, I later performed in a brutal gangbang for Devil’s Films.”
Emily Eve

“I shot scenes where I had to pretend to be dead and let someone rape my dead body. I came home bruised and sometimes a little bloody from the rough scenes. I shot deep throat scenes where they slapped me and spit on me and called me horrible things. I threw up, and had to keep shooting.. I couldn’t breathe because of the vomit in my nose and the genitals in my mouth.”
Jenna Jameson

“Most girls get their first experience in gonzo films – in which they’re taken to a crappy studio apartment in Mission Hills and penetrated in every hole possible by some abusive asshole who thinks her name is Bitch. And these girls, some of whom have the potential to become major stars in the industry, go home afterward and pledge never to do it again because it was such a terrible experience.”
Jersey Jaxin

“Guys punching you in the face. You have semen from many guys all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides can come out of you. It’s never ending.” – Jersey Jaxin
Anita Remby

“So what porn gave me was debt, diseases and people who think I’m a used up whore.”
Belladonna

“I like to hide — hide everything, you know?… And I’m not happy… I don’t like myself at all… My whole entire body feels it when I’m doing it and… I feel so — so gross.”
Roxy

“After only 30 movies I caught two sexually transmitted diseases. Herpes, a non-curable disease and HPV, which led to cervical cancer where I had to have half of my cervix removed. Porn destroyed my life.”
Corina Taylor

“When I arrived to the set I expected to do a vaginal girl boy scene. But during the scene with a male porn star, he forced himself anally into me and would not stop. I yelled at him to stop and screamed ‘No’ over and over but he would not stop. The pain became too much and I was in shock and my body went limp.”
Linda Lovelace

Linda Lovelace has much to say about her pornographer: “When in response to his suggestions I let him know I would not become involved in prostitution in any way and told him I intended to leave, [Traynor] beat me up physically and the constant mental abuse began. I literally became a prisoner, I was not allowed out of his sight, not even to use the bathroom, where he watched me through a hole in… the door. He slept on top of me at night, he listened to my telephone calls with a .45 automatic eight shot pointed at me. I was beaten physically and suffered mental abuse each and every day thereafter. He undermined my ties with other people and forced me to marry him on advice from his lawyer.”

“My initiation into prostitution was a gang rape by five men, arranged by Mr. Traynor. It was the turning point in my life. He threatened to shoot me with the pistol if I didn’t go through with it. I had never experienced anal sex before and it ripped me apart. They treated me like an inflatable plastic doll, picking me up and moving me here and there. They spread my legs this way and that, shoving their things at me and into me, they were playing musical chairs with parts of my body. I have never been so frightened and disgraced and humiliated in my life. I felt like garbage. I engaged in sex acts for pornography against my will to avoid being killed.The lives of my family were threatened.”
Ashlyn Brooke

I honestly felt that if I had to have another strange man in my face, his hands (God knows where they’ve been all over me) him calling me his baby and having to exude some sort of forged passion for the world to see, I probably would have exploded. And what would have been stuck to the walls would have probably been nothing, just pieces of skin, bone, the brain of a robot, and what would have been left of what would have existed once as a huge and warm heart.
Danielle Williams

A female porm star that’d been in the industry for a while had excessive anal intercourse and a piece of her muscle from her anus fell out on set while she was filming. Some females damaged their reproductive systems which left them unable to have children. A male porn star broke the muscle in his penis because he was having abnormal and outragous rough sex. I found that a male porn star who was in the business for a while was a devil worshipper. Both male and female porn stars were committing suicide. A lot of the porn stars were known to go overseas and do beastiality in porn. (Sleeping with animals.) Shortly after that, a numerous amount of people starting turning up with diseases, Herpes to be exact.

Herpes! They will let you work with it! – excerpt from Danielle’s book, “From Porn to the Pulpit” – page 98
Alex Devine

“Donkey Punch was the most brutal, depressing, scary scene that I have ever done. I have tried to block it out from my memory due to the severe abuse I recieved during the filming. The guy, Steve French has a natural hatred towards women in the sense that he has always been known to be more brutal than EVER needed. I agreed to do the scene thinking it was less beating, except the ‘punch’ in the head. If you noticed, steve had worn his solid gold ring the entire time, and continued to punch me with it. I actually stopped the scene while it was being filmed because I was in too much pain.”
Crissy Moran

“I went through more heartbreaks and became suicidal. I was taken to the hospital for panic attacks. I tried to overdose on xanax, strangle myself, and cut my wrists but not nearly deep enough. I was too scared of the pain. I prayed God would just take me away! I felt helpless. I even went to church for a few months but the guilt I felt was overwhelming that I would feel as if I were choking when I was at church. I had to choose and once again I chose to continue sinning. It was easier and I needed the money.”